I've been through many things in my life.
It is true that there are many people who walk a simpler path and that I bring on certain situations upon myself.
It took me many years to work out why this might be the case. I looked to discrimination based on many of the minority groups I am in but that only explained the disadvantage. I looked to my choices to see if I was making bad ones on purpose. It wasn't a self destructive streak and years of therapy made me accept that.
Finally, I realised that things happen in my life because I choose to participate. I dive in to life head first. I fall in love. I take a chance. I change my situation to adopt an oppirtunity.
Some people die young and are not buried until they are old.
That will not be me.
I will not look towards the winter of my life with dread. I will not exist in the summer of my life and hope for moments of spring. No, each season will be the best that I can have and have the best of me that I can give.
Maybe that means I fall on my arse regularly but I also experience an overall level of happiness and contentment that a lot of people don't.
For now, I shall continue on this path. Yes, despite the downs. Always for the ups.