It's more than a year now. I try not to calculate exactly the number of days. He felt out of love with me two years before he even left. That was 5 months after we were married. He was the one who wanted to get married.
So he's off now with his new girlfriend called Nadia, who looks like a lovely person. Someone I would even be friends with. She's thin. Flat stomach. Straight hair. White. Not anything like me.
I know that if someone doesn't love you then you are better off without them but I don't feel better off. I still feel heartbroken. I still feel devastated. I still cry myself to sleep. I still hope he thinks of me at all.
This has to end, right? It can't be this way forever. I don't want to feel like this anymore.