Tuesday, 24 May 2011

They will look for me

I have often wondered how I person gets up and walks out of the lives of everyone they know and love.

How do you just leave and never contact them again? How do you leave them wandering where you are and how you are? How do you cut all ties?

Now, I find it hard to see this as just black and white.

Recently, I have wanted to get up one morning and say bye as usual and then leave. Leave, never to be seen again. Go somewhere far far far far away. Somewhere that nobody knows me. No one takes a second look. Start all over again. Be nothing to anyone. Disappear. No longer be me.

Some days, I just wish it was quiet.


A Slave Journal said...

I often think the same thing.

The feeling is sometimes overwhelming. The only thing stopping me is.... I actually don't know what to call it. Fear. I think is what the feeling boils down to.

Damana Madden said...

But Muse, I am not afraid.

A Slave Journal said...

I think it's a good thing you are unafraid. Fear prevents us from seeing clearly. I am working on mine.