Saturday, 16 October 2010

Tonight I told my mother

People don't actually understand what it's like to be mentally sick. They don't understand that it's not as easy as it seems. Some days I try so hard to be normal that I have to go home and sleep for 4 hours just to recover. Other days I sit on the floor and cry. Some days I explode and kick at the world. Push everyone away. Fall apart. Those days are fewer and far between and I recover faster. All I can do is survive and live every day until the days are easy to live :)

2 comments:

Misfitz said...

Keep going Mana, if you look behind you, I'm the one on the right, riding that roller coaster with you, babe. Hang in there ((hugs))

robin leanne said...

I love reading your posts cuz its like you reached into my brain & put into words how I feel inside. People have told me to "fake it till you make it", but do they realize how exhausting that is? Probably not. Someone mistook me for 5months pregnant this week. I haven't got out of bed since. I don't think anyone can understand what's in our crazy little brains till they have been in our huge empty confusing shoes. And I don't wish it on anyone, even if they don't get it. This has been the hardest 2yrs of my life. I have lost friends along the way, which breaks my heart - but I have also gained some. We have never met in person (yet) but I feel like I've known you forever. I hope you have a few more good days than bad. That's all we can hope for :-) luv u sis & keep putting one foot in front of the other. Maybe one day we will be free... xoxoxo